I am thinking this book should have been titled How to Make a Reader Swoon, Tear Them Up Emotionally and Then Attempt to Stick Them Back Together While Making Them Think of a Bunch of Goddamn Philosophical Stuff. This book just about killed me! I laughed, I cried, I cried some more, and I felt like I was going to throw up but it was soooo worth it!How to Kill a Rock Star made me look at fate in a whole new way. I had always thought fate was some universal pull that made things happen but in reality, it is a series of choices and decisions that cause something to happen. Whether it was meant to be or not, we each have a hand in our fate. There are no outside forces working; it is you and me and the second in time where we must choose a fork in the road. If I decide to get on a plane and that plane crashes, I died because I decided to get on that plane at that particular time at that particular airport to that particular destination. If I meet my soul-mate in the subway, it is because I decided and he decided to be in that place at that time. For Loring, it was fate (his decision to not go to his father's room) that kept him from meeting Eliza in Cleveland. It was fate that Paul met Michael whom had a sister that happened to move to New York that happened to need an apartment. Of course, once fate strikes Eliza and Paul, it is their attraction to each other and love for music that seals the deal! This book will have you thinking about fate, fear, love, loneliness, and death.I goddamn LOVED Paul, even with his pea green suit, pancreatic cancer, and big Greek nose (I may have given him a British accent when he was speaking too). He was a rocker but he had this dorky quality that I found so endearing. Ah, I loved him so much I think I would have eaten the hideous tuna and bean pizza;) He had passion and drive but he is lonely and doesn't realize it until he meets Eliza who takes away his loneliness. This was alluded to in Paul's thoughts, "There's a big difference between being alone and being lonely. And I'm guessing that once you've discovered this distinction you can't go back to solitary confinement without serious emotional repercussions." And boy did he ever worship Eliza; I think we all swoon for a man with as much worship as Paul had. He said it best, "Eliza has the sky in her eyes and I've always wanted to touch the goddamn sky". I hoped he would always be able to touch the goddamn sky without emotional repercussions but fate may have had a say in that.And Eliza, I felt bad for her loss and admired her love for all things music but she let fear override love and I would have to say being away from love has to be much more painful than conquering a fear. I wanted to hit her over the head a few times in this book. She made some choices in the book that negatively affected her fate and the fate of those around her. Through much of the book I thought how sad it would be to live your life with fear as your compass. I have no doubt in my mind that Paul would have chosen her over music but she had a hard time choosing him over fear. She did work herself back into my heart by the end of the book but I did not like her for a good chunk of this book!And Loring, I found him to be a swoon-worthy man in his own way (not quite a swoon-worthy as Paul). I am glad that things worked out the way they did for him in the end but I hated some of what he had to go through because he choose love over fear. It is kind of funny how that works, one person chooses fear over love and one chooses love over fear and they try to make things work but in the end anyone who chooses fear over love isn't thinking with their heart.This book made me think a lot about the choices I made in life that lead me to where I am today and I am sure it has that effect on a lot of people. After all, this philosophical point made by Paul rings true for me, "Always remember how lucky you are to wake up next to someone who thinks you're the sh**". I discussed this with the husband and we both agree that we think the other is the sh**:)Okay, I tried to write this without giving anything away because it is one of those books that if I tell you too much, it will be ruined. All I can say is that it is AMAZING and if you have not read it, you need to do so NOW! And if you are going to read this, BUCKLE YOUR SEATBELT and ENJOY!OVER!